給Iggy的信

　

dear Iggy：



　it's been a long time no see. how are you doing recently?



　My life in NTU is really busy -- since I aim to get my master degree

in 2 years. being bored, exhausted, and frustrated, somtimes I miss you

guys sharing lives on that crowded NCCU campus. People say there will

be a class reunion in mid-April, I don't expect you to fly back but

must write 2 you.



　These days.... I am becoming more and more fragile. Have less courage

to speak or act like who i was b4. don't know why, maybe it's bc that

I spent too much time reading textbooks and theories silently. silently.

don't have to say a word except for ordering meals 4 myself. I have

been in this isolated situation for months, and expectedly it'll last

til my graduation.



　anyway, am i complaining too much? Im just not in the mood for

studying today. and wanted to write to an old friend, telling that

i need someone to talk. am i being too selfish?



　but I assume that you can understand my feelings.



　couple weeks ago i met a guy came from Philladelphia. he's kinda decent,

well-educated, and humorous one -- not b4 long i found myself trapped in the

tenderness we built up 2gether. We dated many times, almost everyday, doing

nothing but hanging around in town, talking. talking. and someday we kissed.

doesn't this sound too good to be true? or the relationship is just bad bc

he's really good for me. - I mean, he's flying back to the US next week,

and planning to move to Chicago for his new job contract in May. Nothing

will happen in-between asia and the US.



　I like this guy. but there's no commitment between us. A distant love

drives people hurt n die. We discussed thru this silly thing and decided

not to jump into the swamp. Gently. after we saw a movie or had a cup of

coffee he'd kiss me. Gently. saying, 'we should keep that kiss longer.'

and then we kissed again, longer.



　he said, "you're brilliant, talented, and absolutely cute." And when

i was late for our appointment, he said, "am afraid you were not coming."



　He invited me for a visit to Chicago in Aug, informing me there will be

a film festival that I will definitely enjoy. Could I firmly look back to

the past few weeks we wandered? Do I have that much courage to fly where

he lives in the future? I mean, dear Iggy, I really don't know what to do.

- but if doing so, your residency in that city must be the strongest reason

that I fly myself there.



　talk to me anytime.





yours,

YC



2008/03/08