2006/10/08

　

sometimes I found myself looking for something new

something I barely knew, that I stand outside

myself not knowing what to do when I was

in debt of love. I owed you something I couldn't give



it might be some respect that I don't understand

but you've got to learn it's coming to the turning point

going back, back into the days we're in love

don't neglect that the beauty would once become ugliness

once, i caught you naked on the cold floor

with someone I don't know

drinking cold water taking little pills, bewildered

like you'd not recognize me, my tears devoured everything



so why don't you just make it happen



it's a mysterious chain reaction which

my action is confined to part of your decision

I want to bury you in the sand while the

tide's turning onto the beach, the ocean, and

the wind's bringing some fraction and weathering

　

do you understand that I was dying

if you don't ever need me



suddenly I realized I didn't really enjoy it

actually I regret it. a part of broken man's

fallen with me

into the abysmal chasm which no one could reach its bottom

falling, falling deeply



so why don't you just make it happen?

you're getting common sense that you're my source of anguish

so why don't you make it happen

directly undraw my bulwark of dignity

destroy my bastion of love



a nuclear bomb bursts out in me

I owed you so many things I just couldn't give

why don't you make it happen



i am leaving